Why am I doing this?

It isn't complicated. It really isn't. I simply want to improve the quality of my life, so that in turn I am able to improve the life quality of those around me, those I hold dear.

For too long now I have drowned in self pity and inadequecy. I have seen my health deteriorate over the last year and I, me, nobody else, has allowed it to happen. In fact I have been the catalyst and I have even made things worse through my choices and acceptance of mediocracy.

I am not naive. I understand, appreciate and welcome the challenge that I have ahead of me. It has already begun. As I write this post I am drenched in sweat, my body aches, I feel weak, I feel emotional, I feel pathetic; the reasons for these feelings will be made clear in coming posts.

I have to remain anonymous. For reasons of job security and professional reputation. And also for the sake of my family. Again, all will become clear over the coming weeks, months and hopefully years.

Take care.

S.